The Time Traveler

I should be studying for an exam.

When I was a kid, I had this preconceived notion that the label “friend” has a very deep meaning. In my head, you simply can’t call anyone a “friend.” For one to be called as such, you must have a strong connection. You share same interests and what-not. You always talk with each other and hang out. You know the person inside and out like a sibling. You trust them with all your heart. And regardless of everything, you stay close to that person. Basically, I thought friends were like family except not blood-related.

As I grew up, I realized society does not define “friend” that way. You don’t necessarily have to feel a strong connection to be friends with someone. You might not like the same things but you’re still friends. You might not constantly talk and hang out but you still remain friends. You might not know the person like a sibling. You might not really trust them, yet you’re friends. But regardless of everything, you would always have the choice to stay connected to that person. How I described friendship years earlier is probably the way close friend- and/or best friend- relationships work.

I have never been friends to anyone long enough to become best friends. I guess being friends with someone really takes a lot of work and I am just too lazy to make an effort. Maybe it’s the small talk that puts me off. Or the endless discussion of the same topics all over again. Or maybe it’s the fact that being friends with someone means opening up and going out of my comfort zone. Or maybe I am just really in dire need to seek professional help due to an undiagnosed psychological disorder.

I am wired in a wrong way. :))